24 september 2015

Tarikh yg paling perit aku pernah lalui.. Dia xmgkn akan aku miliki sbb dia da sah menjadi milik org.. Aku cube kuatkn aty aku yg dia bukan jodoh aku tp aku x leh terima hakikat tu.. Dia adalah segala nye dlm hidup aku nie.
Aku da x mgkn dapat hubungi dia lagi lepas nie.. Aku cube tanam dalam hati yg dia gembira aku pn patut gembira.. Tp tu smua karut.. Aku x leh nknterus kn idup nie.. Sakit yg x tertahan nie.. Pedih sgt2.. Dia nampak gembira bila dlm gmbr kawin dia.. Aku sangat2 terseksa bile nmpm gmbr tu.. Aku cube senyum kat luar tp kat dlm hati sape yg bace nukilan aty aku nie je taw..

dlm hati siapa yg tahu

Rindu zaman2 blog.. Rindu zaman2 aku stalk org gune blog.. Gile la aku mase tu.. Tp tu da tggl kenangan sbb org yg aku stalk tu da pergi tanpa ucap selamat tggl.. Aku try lupe kn.. Da dekat 2 tahun da still aku xleh lupe setiap kenangan yg aku ade ngan dye.. Lol maaf klu cite pasal perasaan tp tu la realiti yg aku hadapi.. Aku tertekan.. Aku x dpt nk hadapi hidup nie da tanpa dye.. Dye sng je aku tgk cari pengganti.. Lol. Mgkn sbb dye sng dpt aku n senang gak nk lupe kn... Ok la.. Nnt aku post lagi klu ade pape...

"The Memory"

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
Winter's gone and I still can't sleep
Summer's on the way
At least that's what they say
But these clouds won't leave

Walk away
Barely breathing
As I'm lying on the floor
Take my heart
As you're leaving
I don't need it anymore

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

Now spring has brought the rain
But I still see your face
And I can not escape the past
Creeping up inside
Reminding me that I
Can never bring you back

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless

This is endless [3x]
Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long

This is the memory
This is the curse of having
Too much time to think about it
It's killing me
This is the last time
This is my forgiveness
This is endless
This is endless

Someone help me
'Cause the memory
Convinced itself to tear me apart
And it's gonna succeed before long
(This is endless)

She is everywhere I go
Everyone I see
But these clouds won't leave 

 

PS: lgu ade kene mengene ngan idup aku... terlalu sakit... 

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hai..
lame gile aku da tak menulis kat blog nie...
skunk agak bz sikit r.. keje shift nie..
mmg sakit r...
hahahaha... sowy lme tak update...
skunk agak busy ngan forum gnum-x...
hahaha....
ok la.. aku nk sambung berforum jap.. n tido.. esok keje... hahaha..
see u guys later...
bubye...

Menghilang...

Lame da aq x menulis dlm blog nie...
sowy skunk keje bkn mcm dulu...
alhamdulillah.... dpt naek pangkat sikit....

Keje penat beb...
nk manage headcount yg ade dgn hours yg bos provide...
kowg x paham kn...
haha...
sbnrnye... aq akan manage bpe owg akn angkat kol dlm 1 hari...
dgn syarat lepas aq punye service level(Target) n x lebih dr 400 hours...
mmg ssh...
kadang2 tu aq kne maki dgn bdk2 office...
smua sbb bende2 mcm nie...
pening kepala aq...

tp x pe..
nie semua tanggungjawab yg pelu aq pikul...
demi keluarga aq...
aq sanggup wat ape saje...

k r....
nnt ade mase agy cite agy pasal keje aq nie...
hehehe...
bye2...

Salah kau....

sumua yg jd skunk nie sbb dye...
sbb dye aq kembali seperti dulu...
sbb dye jugak aq jd mcm nie...
dye penah ke pikir smua tu...
aq mmg kelam kabut...
sbb dye smua nie jd...
pisang berbuah dua kali...
dye mmg sng2 je tggl kn aq...
idup terumbang ambing...
smua sbb dye....
shazana hanim bt sakri...
mmg sbb dye....
aq benci kau n x kn maaf kn ko smpi aq mati....

kne tggl...

perh...
lame x update blog nie kn.... hehehe...
sowy busy sikit....
nk cite sikit....
setelah beberape bulan aku kne tggl dgn "N"...
bru aq sedar yg aku patut jgn kacau idup dye lagi....
dye pn da lame ade pengganti... ye la...
aq patut hormat dgn keputusan dye buat...
mgkn sebab aq xdpt terima hakikat yg dye da mmg x syg kn aq lagi...
sbb aq terlalu syg kn dye.. sgt2 syg kn dye...
dye pergi begitu saje smpi diri aq tersekse...
serius aq mmg syg kat dye sgt2..
tapi nk wat cam ne....
dye da x syg kat aq n dye da ade owg dye syg....
mmg betul r owg ckp n dye sendiri ckp...
senang kite syg owg tu... sng jugak kite tggl kn dye....
tp knp aq terlalu ssh nk lupe kn dye..
aq masih tggu msj dye setiap pagi..
masih teringat dye lepas aq bukak mata...
mmg ssh aq nk lupe kn dye....
mgkn nie mmg takdir aq bile owg yg aq syg je akan meninggalkn aq...
aq tabah kn je la hati...
ok2.. pape nnt aq cite lgi...
nk kne bersiap pegi keje... hehe...
masih mengantuk x dpt tido semalaman...
mcm mane nk keje...
tp x pe la...

Pedon